I Realized A lot of Things When I Was Tripping Yesterday.

People make choices everyday, you don’t understand why they may be, what could happen because with each choice comes a cause and effect.  

I now realize I’ve been making the wrong choices for myself.  Instead, I’ve been basing every choice that I’ve been presented with the wrong way.  I have too much compassion for the people around me, don’t get me wrong, I love all my friends, but the question is, do they love me the same way?  It seems every time I’m with them, I waste my money, my time and my mind.  When I was tripping, a flood of epiphanies came to me and left me astonished and upset, but at the same time I was released.

Once my mind was open, I just understood the things I haven’t gotten in months. 

I haven’t been myself for months, I’ve been someone else just trying to make people happy so they could understand how much I care for them, and you know, my attempts were futile.  I haven’t stood up for myself in years, and now I am.  I may have compassion for people, but I’ve been misplacing it in people that don’t even love themselves and have changed for other people.  The compassion I’ve been bestowing on them was never meant for them,  it was meant for the people that they were before. 

I’ve explained countless time to them as well about the people they are now.  They taken the turn for the worst, and it doesn’t matter that I know that they are stronger then that.  That they’re beautiful people inside in out,  they are far away now no matter how much faith I put into them.  Instead, they blame what I tell them on the other person,  it doesn’t matter that they have a choice to be whoever they want to be, that they think other person makes them act crazy with worry.  You are who you want to be, and if you don’t put faith into that, what do you have? 

“If God dropped acid, would he see people?”

Stephen Wright

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